well everybody..

i want to thank those of you who wished me a happy birthday. it really means alot to me..

but unfortunately i have some bad news..

when i went to the doctors, they did some blood tests, mainly because they have to start a new medical history because of my move. and because i was going to be getting a new doctor. about an hour and a half after i left, one of the nurses that was in charge of the ER called me told me i needed to come back because my blood sugar was really high. well.. i found out that it was high enough that they immediately admitted me to the hospital. i spent the last part of my birthday and also thursday and friday in the hospital. after plenty of testing, alot of blood being drawn..

i received a birthday present that i never expected

i have diabetes.

being told something like that especially on your birthday is not an easy thing to deal with. i spent the last half of wednesday in tears.. it was especially hard when i told my parents and sis and a few others. everytime i tried to tell them i pretty much broke down in tears.

i know many are going to say that things will be ok, that i can make it through this, that this is something that they know i can adjust to, blah blah blah..

right now i'm wishing and hoping that i can do all that..

they have me on insuline that i have to take every night before i go to bed. checking my blood sugar before i eat and go to bed. i know some stuff about diabetes, but fortunately i'm going to a class on it on monday. which means another day that i'll be missing work.

i don't know what is going to happen, they say that i might have had it for a while, possibly a year. docs were surprised that i haven't ended up in the hospital even sooner. i know that i'll have to change my diet. and also try to get myself in a good exercise routine. but..

the thing that really is having an effect on me is the simple fact that all the people i wish was here to help me with this are so far away.. even tho i know i'm a big boy, there are some things that the having family and friends close by, make things easier to deal with.. and unfortunately for me, all are almost 1000 miles away..

but.. hopefully i'll be able to deal with this, because there's not much else i can do

well.. i gotta go.. i hope everybody else is doing better then i am..

p.s...

i am trying to stay positive.. it's just pretty hard right now.. so please be kind on your comments

-frostie