well...

as some have noticed, my activity here lately has not been the best.. i haven't really been commenting too often and of course me submitting new wallpapers isn't really there right now..

the reasons for this is because there is alot going on and not much of it too good..

1) car is broken again and in the shop.. don't know how much it's going to cost and i already know that i don't really have the money to repair it all..

2) it's hot as hell and my air conditioner decided it doesn't want to work anymore.. all it does is blow warm air.. and it decided to do this today.

3) adjusting to diabeties is still happening.. there are those nights that i'll wake up in a cold sweat and having what we diabetics call the shakes.. that means that my blood sugar leval is too low and that i have to eat/drink something that will bring the level back up. cause if i don't, i can slip into a dibetic coma. and that's pretty scary.. the thought of going to sleep and not waking up is something that i can't get out of my mind and sometimes makes me scared to even try to sleep and has kept me awake on a number of nights. oh yeah.. the total bill i still have to pay as a result of me being in the hospital, the insuline, monthly visits to my docs has now reached $1400.

4) all the above is pretty much drained me mentally and even emotionally... stealing most of my inspiration. and i'm starting to feel as if i'm disappointing those of you who are my watchers.. i sit at my computer at times trying to put some together and i'll sit there staring at the screen and almost nothing i try to create looks decent enough to me that inspires me to continue on with it.. but i am trying, it's just so hard right now


there is one thing that is keeping me going.. and that one thing is helping me not only stay as positive as i can, but also helps make my days alot better then i know they would be if it wasn't for that one thing. i just wish that one thing was here with me instead of being so far away.

well.. i hope all of you are doing good.

stay cool and stay frosty

-frostie